just for fun...'s Journal

3:53pm: oh yeah... new livejournal...

new_wave_jacky

addme.

12:54am: haha

My lj wedding by chynafox
username
age
city
you will marry	horatiodreams
flower girl	steferknee
best man	jrawls
bridesmaid	sursum_corda
you will have your last fling with	somedaynvrcomes
registrar	sexxxcellent
secretly wants to marry you themself	johnj
date of the wedding	November 13, 2023
number of times you do it on your wedding night	37
Quiz created with MemeGen!

11:55pm: to the fuckass who ruined this livejournal. i hope you die.

to everyone else. i am making a new livejournal (well...liza is making me a new livejournal because she rules) i will add everyone who had me added on this one. so add me back.

other than that... once its made i will probably post another entry from this one saying what that one was.

and if anyone has any information regarding people hacking into my shit and being a total asshole, let me know... cause revenge is fun.

ahh thanks for ruining my mood you fucking douchebag.

jacky,the...!

2:37pm: wait!!
"yeah but that doesn't make him any less of a pussy"

hahahahahahahhahahahahaa

fuck you.

2:35pm: i have so much crap on my mind right now.

i just want to run away from everything.

nervous breakdown coming soon to a jacky near you.

there are just a couple things/people keeping me here and sane.

thank you for being amazing. that is for a couple people.

jacky,the...!

12:43am: the against me!. blood brothers show isnt til october 19. and everyone told me it was the 9th.



liars.

1:17am: i wish i was hungry for real.
i have been awake for 41 hours.

i am so excited to sleep, and SO not looking forward to school in the morning.

this weekend was fucking awesome. even with work every day of it.

i think we should cafe hookah it up more often. seriously.

and the slumber parties and kicking ass at mario kart. i hate playing it for game cube but i am actually somewhat good on nintendo 64.

i am so fucking exhausted right now though.

thanks to the cool kids who took my smoke break with me at work. and all the cool kids of this weekend.

jacky,the...!

p.s. just so everyone knows my phone has been sucking super bad lately reception wise SO LEAVE A VOICEMAIL OR I DON'T KNOW THAT YOU CALLED!

p.p.s. someone please burn me the muse cd. thanks.

p.p.p.s. i miss my coprez! where are youuuuuuuuuuuuu!

2:20am: slumber parties with sam and dil and jeff are THE best.

you wish you were here.

i had a good day.

there must be more of these...dil i'm gonna miss youuuu for the six days that i wont see you.

jacky,the...!

11:59pm: sweet marie, there's a hole where your heart should be...
and on the hill, she's beggin for a harmony...


a thought, on deers running around near streets:

"dude that'd be so awesome you just drive by the fuckin deer with a baseball bat and fuckin knock its head off!"

i love my friends.

i leave you all with that.

jacky,the...!

2:23am: love me love me, say that you love meeee.
i just realized my fucking weekend went from wednesday to wednesday. i am only halfway through.

fucking kick ass.

i was in a really bad mood most of tonight. i think i was just enjoying my break from the working class a little too much though. but i got some starbucks, that i've been missing, and i got to go on a walk with my daughter. and stacee helped me straighten some thoughts out.

my job is pretty rad. they're super lenient as well...which makes me want to pierce things and dye hairs. because i can. and i've wanted to anyways. the hair will stay pretty neutral. but i want to get pierced super bad. or maybe even tattooed. ahh decisions decisions.

i need to buy earrings now because i can. there are so many cute ones. more decisions!!!!


the cardigans-lovefool. made my fucking night. as well as savage garden and ace of base. thank you katy and sam.

i can't wait to see dil. I'VE MISSED YOUU!

i need to go to fucking bed.

goodnight,
jacky,the...!

1:25pm: this is you sucking a lot and me being pissed off.
first of all i was almost SHOCKED when i heard what you said. you've definately changed. for the worse. how self righteous can a person be. seriously. maybe you just can't handle your own life or the problems that you might have with people. but i didn't do shit to you. so get jealous. talk shit. make yourself feel like a bigger person because of it.

but i know that you're wrong. and that's all that matters. because obviously our friendship didn't. and doesn't.

so have a wonderful life.

1:09am: controversy.

10:56am: this is so fucking sick.

3:45am: make it hurt.
i'm sorry. i suck.

i'm awful at remembering shit.

i'd give someone a dollar to explain myself to me.

i hate being unsure.

<3

6:15am: i couldn't sleep and due to some boredom i ended up actually adding things to my myspace that i made forever ago and never used.

if i found you on there expect emails. add me bitches.

http://profiles.myspace.com/users/2081155

word.

2:14am: i need you defensless, dependant, and alone.

2:48am: this is what living like this does.
( first, a boring survey... )


( now, for some pictures... )

12:24am: i've come to the assumption that i'm gonna be the one thats leaving you tonight...
it still feels like summer.

minus the going to class thing.

today was good.

minus a few no call backs.

jerks.

today was still good.

willy wonka gave me and stacee tons of free candy.

and now i have a tummy ache.

that is all.

1:08am: coin operated boy
sitting on the shelf he is just a toy
but i turn him on and he comes to life
automatic joy
that is why i want a coin operated boy


made of plastic and elastic
he is rugged and long-lasting
who could ever ever ask for more
love without complications galore
many shapes and weights to choose from
i will never leave my bedroom
i will never cry at night again
wrap my arms around him and pretend....


coin operated boy
all the other real ones that i destroy
cannot hold a candle to my new boy and i'll
never let him go and i'll never be alone
not with my coin operated boy......


this bridge was written to make you feel smittener
with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer
can you extract me from my plastic fantasy
i didnt think so but im still convinceable
will you persist even after i bet you
a billion dollars that i'll never love you
will you persist even after i kiss you
goodbye for the last time
will you keep on trying to prove it?
i'm dying to lose it...
i want it
i want you
i want a coin operated boy.


and if i had a star to wish on
for my life i cant imagine
any flesh and blood could be his match
i can even take him in the bath


coin operated boy
he may not be real experienced with girls
but i know he feels like a boy should feel
isnt that the point that is why i want a
coin operated boy
with his pretty coin operated voice
saying that he loves me that hes thinking of me
straight and to the point
that is why i want
a coin operated boy.

1:50am: man, this has been one of the best summers thus far.

thank you to all who have been a part of it.

pictures soon.

AND! i want to go see dave chappelle at u of i on sept 12.

that is all.

jacky,the...!

2:46am: show me how you do it...and i promise you, i promise that i'll run away with you...
...i'll run away with you...

5:19am: almost forgot the best picture...


one day this will be my car.

4:51am: insomniac.
( finally my computer and my digital camera are friends again. )

7:09pm: random i am.

well kids. its monday.   i hate mondays.

work kind of sucked but i got to leave early so that was good. and i don't really mind cleaning all that much. so whateva.

my weekend was fucking amazing. i need more days like those.

summer is coming to a close. and it kind of sucks. but i don't really regret anything. even though i didn't do everything i wanted to do or see everyone as much as i would have liked. i had good times with cool kids.

i get to find out whats going on with my knees for sure tomorrow. i'm at least going to have one surgery on my right knee for sure. the other one who knows. i'm kind of scared.

once school starts i'm going to be a lot less fun. well. during the week anyways. i'll probably still be working a lot because i can't really afford to work any less than i do now. add five classes into that.

the plan is ISU at least once a month. i wish i went to school there so i wouldn't have to miss it so much. next year...hopefully. i'll just have to continue kicking ass at harper. meh.

i thought i was going to have a nervous breakdown today.                                    it was kind of scary.

i've realized, that i am pretty fucking angry. in general. but i'm one of those secretly angry people who doesn't tell anyone that they're angry. and when they do, they don't say why or at who. because they don't like confrontation. so like even though i explode sometimes, its only a fraction of how angry/upset i really am. and when the day comes that i do say everything thats on my mind, you better watch out.

i think thats all i've got for now. maybe i'll think of more random things later.

i am hungry.

the end. love, jacky,the...!

1:38am: with accidents you'll never know what could happen.